Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh, tired, complain-y, and I'm lost. Wandering helplessly without any clue as to what direction to take next. Help!!!!

If I explained this to my mother, her advice would be "Only God can help you". She might be right, I'm not doubting that, but to analyze and figure out what she means by that is the tricky part. If I were to believe God is found in many different sources and that he's everywhere, then where do I turn? Apparently He's been here for a long time, without me knowing it. Just have to figure out where...

New Life

There's no such thing as changing who you are, but acting differently each day is a whole different story. You are able to adapt to change, whether it be a good or bad change.

Let's take me, for example. In the past year, I've managed to work at one of the most "respected" non-chain head shops in America, and I'll face it, it's changed me profusely. Quitting the job was not what I looked forward to, but it was necessary, and I'm glad I did. Some bad habits I had picked up while working there were things such as drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, and...I'm sure there's more life changes that I picked up while working there. So far, those habits not only could have managed to get me in trouble, they changed the way I felt and thought. In a bad way. I've managed to fix my life little by little, where now I am in the best health/shape I've been in my lifetime which makes me happy. But overall, things aren't changing in my accomplishment area of my life. I'm wanting to go to school, see the world, have some security in finances (which I've been privileged to have once in a while), and meet someone I can spend a part of my life with. I don't want to be sucked into the same lifestyles as everyone else; dead end jobs knowing dead end people. I would love to experience most of the sober-life things that life has to offer, and I know I'm the only one stopping myself from doing this.

Some things that you might want to know about me: I may say I don't take much "stock" in astrology, but it intrigues me to know how accurate it could be, although there's a thin line between accurate and convincing that it's accurate. I understand that we all make our own destinies, but we're given some kind of route or more like tendency to choose a certain route.

Quote of the day:

"Life is a struggle, but once you accept that, it becomes a lot easier." -Anonymous